When I grow up...I'll be stable...

I have been in a lull in the past few days. A lot has hit my friends, some extremely trying struggles are ahead of them, and I am working my best to support them. Because of this I have not been doing my regular things like...taking millions of pictures. I should be taking advantage of the last of the summer. I am depressed just saying that.
The leaves on our little tree are starting to change. I kinda feel sick in my tummy when I see them...I love summer that much!
My girl is growing and there are big changes on my horizon. Growing changes with my friends, with myself, scenery changes are ahead as well, moving is up and coming for us. At least I have that to look forward to. A brand new house, a new space that I can make my home. I think I've been waiting for this for a long time.
I'm starting to feel more grown up.

Give Them Something To Talk About

This is a rant blog!!!! Why do people talk shit? Why? Lately I feel like I can't trust anyone. Cause people seem to just not be telling the truth to me lately. Telling me what I want to hear, I guess.
This is not something recent. Just something I have been dealing with for the last few months. But my mind has been opened up to it again, and it feels like someone opened up a wound. A past drama with some girls online (it always seems to be online friends) which happened to leak through networks of friends into my real life friends has somehow resurfaced, and I'm getting mad about it all over again.
Honesty is the best policy! Seriously!

At least I know this little bug is honest with me. Thank God for my Little Machine (a nickname given to her by her Godmother, Jaime).



and her daddy too. This guy is stuck to me like glue. Something I have really learned in the past couple months



Now that the rant is over. My family is AWESOME. I had some people REALLY pull through for me in this past week. I feel loved by my family so therefore, I will stick to that positive note and end this blog.

no photos?

Weird, but I just realized I haven't taken any pics of Jayla for like, a couple weeks almost. This never happens.
I have one shot. She looks a little upset. She's been sick with tonsilitis and I've learned that she's a champion whiner.
She cute while she does her whining but it's very trying at times!
My mom says: "oh she's just like you!"

thanks!



and in other news...Josh is sitting up unassisted! Amazing little guy he is!

Don't talk to me, okay?

So Jayla is pretty sure she has figured out how to avoid getting into trouble. It is so crazy, it almost makes sense. If she does something she is not supposed to do, for example, put a coating of lip gloss on her mouth that's thick enough to rival the cream cheese layer on a Tim Hortons bagel, I might be inclined to ask her to stop applying even more of this flavored goop.
So in comes the request to stop. "jayla, please give the lip gloss to mommy, you have enough on"

Jayla's response is simple. "No Mommy. Don't talk to me. Okay?" Oh, and you better know she says it with perfect annuniaction and even raises her one hand, using it to emphasize her words.

Gee, I didn't even realize that *I* did that. But I can guarantee that is where she got it from.

So I ask her to hand it over again, and this time she realizes asking me to shut up just isn't producing the results that she wants. So she tells me to just fuck off all together.

"Mommy, just go away. Okay?" with hand waving included.

Well...at least she gets right to the point. And by adding "Okay?" at the end of her ever-so polite, but honest, requests, it seems to make it seem as though she may actually be asking me. When I don't think in her mind she really cares if it's okay with me or not.

Your Inbox is Full

This was one of the more interesting days in my life. I didn't say good, I didn't say bad, I said interesting.

Mom's house is never dull. I was in charge of the two toddlers and one newborn this morning. I would rather be in charge of 10 newborns. Between A and J, there is never a moment when I can sit down. Unless it's cause I'm stuck to the toilet with some sort of medical reasoning, in which I will spare you the details. Let's just say that Josh had to enjoy his carseat in the bathroom with me for a while. He is a generally happy guy so that's okay. Jayla and Aliyah played with toilet paper rolls. I let them, only because it was better and less dangerous than a lot of other things they could be destroying. So that was the extent of my sit down time.

My joys this morning started when J decided she wanted to see what Josh's hand tasted like. Apparently it was pretty good because she felt the need to actually clamp down pretty hard on it. Poor guy. He was pretty upset. No real damage done though. After this, someone did a poop in the potty which is good, except when A and J decide to take it upon themselves to empty it into the toilet. Won't go any further there. It involved a lot of cleanup and half a bottle of Fantastik disinfectant spray.

Next was something pretty funny. I got the girls their lunch, chicken noodle soup. Aliyah was apparently a little too excited and launched herself onto her chair with too much gusto. She went up one side and flew off the other side of the chair immediately, head first. She took down her bowl of soup with her, which resulted in a broken bowl, soup everywhere, and a frightened girl. We got past this. But the replay in my mind still has me chuckling.

I took A upstairs and tucked her into mom's bed. When I came down I found J applying lotion to her face. "Mommy I put on lotion". It wasn't really lotion (you guessed it). It was actually chicken noodle soup. So she had a bath. While Josh cried in the swing, and I prayed to some Gods that Aliyah was behaving herself upstairs in mom's room. Which she was.

The Mommy Gods? Is that who I was praying to?

I don't know, but I'm sure they have a pretty full inbox too, if they do exist. I guess that's why they don't always answer.

The Random

hmmm, well here I am. First maybe we should get some things straight about me. I don't always capitalize shit. Sorry. But I am kind of anal about spelling, so you can probably count on some skills in that area. I am not sure like, how I'm going to be at this typing thing.

I hope that people will enjoy my writing style though as it grows and changes with whta I hope will be regular writing...as in, this blog.

Right now, as a mom, my focus is on Jayla, who is my 2 year old daughter. Jayla Kyle. People ask me, 'why kyle?'. I say 'ask kris' because it was his choice. I chose Jayla he chose Kyle. I had a LOT of names I ran past him, but he said no to most of them. Cheyenne, Brielle, Rory, Dylan, uhmmm, I dunno. I have a lot. Kris chose Kyle though. He surprised me with  it after we decided on Jayla as a first name, which was my choice cause, well...I labored for 36 hours before having an emergency c-section, while completely knocked out. When I woke up I couldn't stop shaking.

I don't know if you've ever had surgery, but waking up from general anesthetic is an indescribable experience. You're just DRUGGED. Seeing double, not sure what the hell is going on. [please also be aware i might have a potty mouth here and there.]

Anyway. Jayla is my life, so is Kris, my man.

Other things I am really into is photography, I love reading hollywood gossip. I'm a big Perez Fan.

I am trying SO HARD to get into fitness. Okay. I haven't really tried. I have thought about it really hard. Last week I started. I have gone 3 times since Monday. I'm so proud of myself...

a week. ha. Well I'll let you know how this pans out.

Now, here's some random thoughts for tonight.

Jayla is now saying a lot of 'howsitgoin?' and when asked a question she ALWAYS says 'uuummm...' before her answer. it is hilarious. the tone is the best. i wish that could come across in my writing. Anyway I just love her. I'm sure you guessed that I love her.

crap. I forgot my next random thought.

Okay, here's one, I'm freakin out cause Jaime's wedding is so soon. &$%*! I'm just not ready I can only imagine how Jaime feels.

The other day I noticed that at my mom's house that they have like, SO many toothbrushes. There are 4 people that live in the house full time. Me and Jayla are there on certain days. 6 toothbrushes? No, there's like sixteen. I think I actually counted them. I considered taking pictures of them too but I thought that might be creepy. Sometimes I do cross that line.

What's up with 16 toothbrushes?

The other thing I'm thinking about is that tomorrow, The Other Boleyn Girl comes out. I read this book in 2004 or 5...and I am stoked for the movie. I also love Scarlett Johansson and Natalie Portman. I think they're both gorgeous. The Other Boleyn Girl was actually my first historical novel that showcased 16th century court life under the reign of King Henry VIII. I have since read several other books by Philippa Gregory that take setting in his reign.

However, I can't let myself see the movie until I read the book cover to cover again. I started last month but have lost my momentum in it. I'll have to pick that up again.

Well, enough rambling for now. Things are good, you'll se what goes on in my life I guess if you come back to read.

New Blog for me!

Well I do have another blog just in case anyone wondered. I am going to take a shot at a more personal one though.

Wish me luck.

Stay tuned.